Speechless

for our relationship
im very feel tired....
Sory about everything...
i alway find argue....................................................
i 4got wad i promise myself b4...
now i remember on it..=D

Pain

Im really miss our begining moment,u alway find me 1st
when i school,u wake up direct find me,and keep sms when i was studying
u can accompany when nite,whole nite also accomapanying with me
why now change till like that?what reason?mayb all was my problem
i make you lazy sms with me,im too annoying already...
from this month you begin change,u even no work no do anything
alway go CC play game,u still cant sms all the time,
like playgame busy than working...mayb game really important to you..
i hope you can be like before alway accompanny me
but that impossible,u cant do it for me i know.....
This blog im not alway Open,but now i begin everyday open
everyday type my diary,and the tear keep coming out
u rmb what you promise ytd?you say that you busy,u will find me at fb
but 1 msg also dint have,u dint reload why you wanna say like that?
i know i wait till im cry,i duno why u wan like that?

im everyday cry for what?you rabbit care me?will rabbit direct sms me?NEVER!!!!!!!
impossible thing,please dont thk till so good
this is the 1st time i love you,until i alway cry...mayb i cry,for you was nothing
cause you already habit i cry....a while ntg....
you know why no ppl care me when im crying?
cause they all already habit i alway like tiz mood..
know why thy never ask me what happen?cause they already know what happen...
2day i keep wait you msg again,but u still dun wann find me
but i see ur fb got comment another girl status,that girl pretty 1 =D
but my fb,every post just like rubbish..ya i admit those i post de also a rubbish
i alway on9 fb see you on9,you sometime never find me,wait i find you
then you reply me,or sometime dint reply me...u doing a big business...?
im really admire those couple so sweet,however they also never change like us...
our feelings was getting cold,never become sweet like the begining...
if you are really busy,u need a gf for what?
i know im not perfect to you,cause you have couple with a foolish girl..
useless,ugly,fat,stupid girls....
im not look nice then other girls,they are pretty,clever,nice
im not,so that you alway comment thr post....cause they are really good
im just a foolish girl...no ppl like......
family also dun like me,mayb fren also,this i really duno
i hate myself very much...i hope i can die fasther....
i dun wana stay in this not equitable world
im tired already,please let me go....

Rabbit i no chance alway can sms with you already
i no chance to call you
i no chance to care you
i no chance for everything....u know this few week i got many thing wann say
many many....just wanna share with you my thing...
and i just wan to ask you that this sunday can come to see my performance?
the ticket i help you buy already,however you can go or not..it also ok..
but i no chance to told you this thing...cause u no time
to let me say it to you,u onli just do ur thing.....
i duno when we got time again............................
i just hope we can be back when the begining of you and me
nothing gonna change my love for you..that was our 1st time told each other
the word .......
now i cant see this word on my mind anymore....
my heart was getting pain and pain and pain....

you and mi

what happen to me today?i do like that,will he come back?
will he direct find me?will he know the feeling?
will he dun do this thing anyone?at DREAM =D that was so impossible la please...
he onli 1 day dint find you,you treat urself like that?
please la you......................foolish girls...
I duno wad i wan now,just feel empty inside my brain....
2day im holding the phone again,keep wait his msg,1 also no have
he promise me ytd will find me 1,nvm i wait i wait..HAHAHAHAHA,wait bu dao owh
how?='( cry again and again........................................................................
i dint feel happy today,no ppl care me,no ppl wan me
onli just give ppl bully 2day....but it ok la..i can be habit or endure la...
they happy can liao...jz le them bully me .....
heartpain?onli me alone here pain....crazy woman ...
im childish rite?alway type those useless mood at blog
childish on love...='D
i have jz sooo speechless
i have no chance to find you...but i hope you take care
love you rabbit ❤

Onli you

Sad day =') XD

haix...what im thinking now?my brain all is empty,Onli got HIM
his everything,thinking what he doing,sick le,got take care?
busying for what actually?why i alway ask you busy for what,u skip me?
His hp no money again,im going to be Alone again today...hahahahahahahahahahaha

i keep think,if you continue like that treat me,im really duno i can how anymore
My heart getting pain more then other day,it really pain...i tear,everyday come out
i cry i cry i cry,how i force my self to stop crying,also cant
i just wan you to be confess,inside your life,what thing is the most important for you?
u need me is for what?everyday,everytime im holding the phone
i hope that you fasther find me,cause im really wan to see your msg
but time getting longer,u find me begin less...but im still keep send msg to you
ask you to take care,cause i know that u there,u saw my msg
just i duno why you dun wanna reply,and i dun wanna ask you
Tell me rabbit,izit i give you not enough feedom?so that you less find me or late reply?
rabbit i miss your sound very much,like getting 1month i dint hear your sound already
im really miss ur sound~~~~~our msg getting less too,the day over,msg getting less
or sometime 1 msg also dun have...everytime sudenly offline at fb,u told me that DC
or sometime DC dint tell me,msg also dint have,so that i keep wait keep wait
but you dint find me,im starting to cry again....我不是爱哭包
just onli get hurt too much,cant endure and cry out...
it going to feel alone and more alone for this few day...but im happy
cause i saw you never feel unhappy...=')

When u sin know my feel?im waiting you know someday
can you find a time to accompany me like before?
u alway can accompany...even you are working till nite then u can accompany me also
but this time really not same,you dint work and busy then before,nite just onli
accompany me a while...and i need you to care me...
i dun like you to say sorry to me,cause when you say sorry..my tear will drop u know?
cause sory cant mean anything,rabbit......

however rabbit,i miss the moment when we begining,u so care me
and i can feel it your love....im enough and happy,if now
u can give me the same feeling same like our begining...
i satisfied ...❤

Rabit I LOVE YOU
i love you
i love you
i love you
i love you
i love you
i love you

Im tired today

today feel very tired when i back home,T.T
at school keep practice practice....till im feel tired already...
im lie down the dirty floor and i put my jacket at my head then fall as sleep...
i was dreaming something about my Heart get pain..But i 4got already...
cause while im sleeping..my fren Open the song too loud,so that i wake up direct 4got
i lie down at floor for 1 hour like that..but im was very sad...
cause i look at the time was 4pm ++ ...Rabbit still dint find me....
but i thk his very busy so that i dun wanna send to much msg to him...
but he got reply me at Fb,a while onli he dint reply anymore...he told me that his phone giv his fren take already...aiyoooo~
Then nvm ba..i waitt ^^
my car come fentch me,finally i can go back home at take a bath and rest...
and my mum told me going out and eat dinner.....
i back home direct go bath and chg cloths waiting thy all ready and go eat dinner....
But i keep wait,going to be 7pm,why they dint go yet,i ask my cousin whr my mum at upstair
he told me she cooking,WHAT?cooking?cousin say yup~OMG!!
i wassssssssssss veryyyyyyyyyy angry that time cause i already ready to out and chg cloths..
they dint notify me..WTH!!i Hate ppl like this although she my mum~
she alway told us that do thing need have responsibility,how about her?
when i going downstair eat,im wad get mad,my sis ask me to wash plate
i scold back her self wash la...but i duno why i will say like that...
thn i sit down and eat,my mum say me dun no politeness...i angry
i ask her,who just now say wan go out?she say me la...thn begin mailto:!@%20#$% ^ &
that nvm,when stop argue with mum, my suck sis scold me..
huh?what the matter?did i got offend you?!! i keep eat keep eat
i stuff those food inside my mouth,i dun care if i get gnaw!!!! beter i die la...haiyeah ==
thn i go inside the kicthen wash plate,the plate,i duno i wash dao clean or not..
Then i take water go upstair...continue my Blog...!!
But sudenly,my tear fall down....become Sad mood already
I just feel that im really tired being a human....
rabbit why u keep say u no use,i tired too answer you this msg.....
i just hope i dun wanna repeat again,u has jz read my blog
i hope you understand,cox im not type chinese....
not you bad,just u dint giv ur self a free time to accompany me longer then playgame
u even not understanding on me too many..
what i need is you to care me more...But i dint feel that u caring on me
you just onli do ur thing alway....i alway told you to take care self
but you dint do it,Now sick already...Rabbit tell me please?
U wan i how to care you..I promise my self i never find argue and force you
to do something that you dun like...i diam diam....if can let you happy..
i willing to let....

This 1 Repeat 2rd time,My tear keep fall down...
2day im really feel tired x1+++++++++++++
but no one knoe the tired feeling at heart~
i hope my heart can stop jumping...
i hope i really duno what mean that PAIN...
even through i promise myself never ever to find argue with you
ya, i can do it as well...but my heart very pain

this few day we less sms already,your msg inside my inbox getting less and less....

not like before so many msg already....im really duno wan how already...

you and me

rabbit i miss you soooooooo much arh
haizz.................................................
rabbit..can u tell me what can i do?im really duno How Sin can make you feel that
you're happy arh,i duno wan how can make you happy..i rili duno duno duno
Im very admire those couple,they are sweet and less argue also..
rabbit you remember when we start together that moment
how sweet we are and i was feel happy,we were have many time to accompany each other
care each other,never argue 1,im very happy in that moment
cause im din't love wrong people that im 1st time fall in love with you 1st
no matter how bad u are before,time can let u change your self into a nice guy
im never blame the god why give me this kind of life
cause i know not onli my life is the worst,many of them worst them me
i cant blame anyone.......i need to accept wad god have just give me...
rabbit,can u tell me what i do,u sin feel very happy?
ur phone alway no battery or no money .......i onli can wait you charge and reload
other while,what u doing when u dint find me?got take care self or not?
im very worry you what you doing in all the time when you dint find me
when yo're without any reason and dint reply me,i keep thk many thg..hao soh kan?
this is the most idiot thing that i alway do when u without any reason dint reply me
i keep think much and much and much..thk unitl like u going to break me down
very stupid rite?not im no trust you,this is my sick...i think much not because i dun trust you
cause im rili begin to feel that before my whole memory come back ...
Like inside the jail cant come out,tha memory horrible..!! im very scare.....
that memory make me become a foolish girl....for the 1 year half...
i lock inside a cage like dog...Shyt boy!!If he never come in to my life..
im never change till like tat soo foolish and think much...
i just hope you can treat me better than other...
i just hope you can be concerned with me
i just hope you can only be love me
Im easy to jealouse when i saw a girls near u you,i duno why like tat
i hope i never know what mean is jealouse so that my heart never pain...
i hope that i can endure everthing that you hurt me and be silent
Put at heart and cry....that never make you angry
that never make you feel annoying
that never make us argue...thn u will be happy alway...
im trying to do like this from now on...i will let you everything that you wan
all i need is you to be happy no matter how hurt am i...
i also will sacrifice everythin for you and be endure that hurt
Just please dun ever dun Not choi me please... i need your care babe...

I love you soooooo much rabbit❤

Please?Why?

Where you go?why dont wanna answer my phone?why dint reply me?
you know im very worry about you?say truely,Where you love me?Can i giv you happiness?
Im not feel that im very perfect at all,i Cant giv you happiness,
just know make you alone and duno go whr...
I Keep cant find you,my heart really feel pain,im really a uselees like tat treat you
even through im really duno wad wrong i do you wanna treat me like tat
perhaps im really do wrong,i treat you not enought good
I just wanna take seriously ask you the last Time
Did you still love me?You wana together with me until the end of our life?
Can you giv me all the love by you?can you choi me?
Can you reply me?
Did You know how much i love you?Did u know i cant lost you?
Im very need you rabbitttttttttttttttt
I scare someday you really will leave me
Im really feel that i was very tired,why i find you so many time you still dun wanna choi me?
i cant stop crying 2day,why you wanna treat me like tat?WHY?!
Let me just go suicide and cut of the pain

我害怕失去你

曾经的你是原来那么爱他，曾经的你原来是那么甜蜜
曾经你给了他一个很温暖的拥抱，让他很幸福
我很羡慕，很妒忌
可是这一切都是以前的啊，为什么要把过去的事情说出来
你明知道那个Post是在说你，为什么你要LIKE,为什么你要comment进去，
还说是，为什么他会突然间说出来？目的是什么？想让我吃醋，想破坏我们？
可是他已经有了男朋友呢，也许这些是报应，因为我曾经破坏了你们，
现在轮到你破坏我们，都是我的不好，如果我没有遇到你，如果我没有爱上你
就不会发生了。
当我看到那个post,我真的很害怕那个人真的是说着你
我问你post是不是说着你，你说是.
我的眼泪就开始从出来了，就从那一时刻开始一直流的不停
我真的很妒忌你们曾经是那么浪漫
为什么我没有？为什么？

你知道吗,当我知道哪个是说着你过后，你知道我的感受吗？
你知道我的心真的痛的很难呼吸吗？
我脑海里全部都是那个post,我的心情，真的很想死
我想拿着一把刀一刀一刀的擦下去我的心
我想冲出去屋子，跑去大马路被车撞死
因为我在乎，为什么要说出来
我一直逼我自己不要去想了，那是过去了的事
可是我做不到，我一直哭一直哭
我能让心情好一点的就是冲凉，冲很冷很冷的水
可惜越来越伤心，你不要理我了...我的心很痛很痛
我很想对你说放弃这份感情，可是我一直说不出口
因为我真的太爱太爱你了，因为我真的真的不想失去你
因为我真的像你留在我身边，因为我想要你照顾我
因为我的世界没有你，我留下来没有意义
我真的不知道为什么我那么爱你
你可以不要离开我吗
我很恨我自己为什么那么小气
我恨我自己为什么要出现在你面前
我恨我自己对你不够好，一点点就吵架
我想永远永远都能爱着你，我不想有人抢走你

Rabbit...我知道我对你不够好
我知道这一切都是我的错我把你弄气了
你不要理我了，我活该对吗？
也许你的性格不像我，很快心软
我知道我没有用每次弄你生气
你生气我是因该的
可是你要怎么伤害我
多痛我都可以 只要你还留在我身边
我会永远爱着你Rabbit❤