剩下的路途，有耶稣陪我度过

有时候，我再问我自己，为什么我会那么容易跟朋友吵架而一个一个的走了，
我的朋友，我不是不知道自己是怎样的，这些问题我也会想的，
因为我知道当朋友吵架的时候，我不是对完的
我失去他们前，我已经有了这种感觉，可是我坚持不让这些事情发生，可是却发生了，
就这样，我没有一个值得我去珍惜的朋友
可是我难过的时候也没有任何人可以让我诉苦了。
我只好告诉我妈，我告诉我妈说，为什么我的身边的朋友一个一个的走掉，是不是我的问题？
我是该监考自己吗？我觉得我们的性格真的差别很多，是我自私还是什么？
我妈说不是因为你的问题，而是耶稣想把你身边不珍惜你的人一个一个推掉，耶稣很爱我，
所以他一直都要保护我，不管以后遇到什么第一个人，就要想起耶稣，
耶稣在你身边陪你度过一生，我必须常常祈祷，祈求耶稣能给我美好的每一天
我问我妈妈，为什么我认识一个人一定会有人告诉我他是怎样的人让我去注意他是否是这样的一个人
妈又说了，因为耶稣借用别人来跟你说，要我多注意
无论什么东西，都是耶稣在帮助我，我跌倒的时候，我要感谢的是主耶稣，信不信是在于自己，
信就是有，不信就是没有，我选择了相信，
朋友我不是没有，只不过我不想当他们是我真心的
又一次初二我留级，我想转校，可是我牺牲了，我浪费了一年，
我留下来我读第二次初二，为了的是朋友，因为我珍惜他们，
我想跟他们在一起，朋友不管怎样都是一起的，但是我现在发现了，
我是错的，因为我浪费了一年为了自己的朋友，换来一个失去，
不知道为什么，吵架的时候，伤心的好像只是我，
我看见了他们的笑容，比跟我在一起那段时间还要多，开心就好~

我希望我明年真的能离开，我不想留在沙巴，我走不是为了前途，
而是为了回忆我想忘记每一个人对我的好以坏，就是一个新人开始生活，
从新认识朋友那该多好，可是去不去到，还不知道。
我以为我已经忘记了伤心，我以为我不会再为你们伤心了，原来我做不到 :')

谢谢你们让我认识了这个世界不是像故事里那么天真，
只要对人家好就有好的回报再怎么好，
都有一个欺骗再中间，我会慢慢的忘记着一些回忆 :') 加油素玲

我想知道 :'(

上个星期日14/8/11
我跟我男人出街，我总觉得他变了很多很多
我不知道是为什么，还是是我的问题，我想太多
以前的他不管怎样都只是看我，
可是现在的他不懂为什么都会看其他女生
那天我们去买戏票，前面排队有一位很美很美的女孩
他跟我男人是朋友，认识的，就跟他打招呼
然后我就看着我的男人的眼神，他就好像看见美女的表情
他看着那位女孩从上到下，那一刻，我的心真的真的被割了一掉
不是我小气，而是我觉得自己很自卑，人家可是很美才被吸引
那我的:'( 我一点也不美，又肥又丑
在你面前我都不会打扮，因为我想要自己自然的脸去面对你，
我不要化妆，我不要穿的美美，因为那个是假的自己
其实每一次跟你出街，我都觉得自己很自卑，丢你脸
我会觉得人家在想为什么那个男生那么好看女生又丑又肥，不配
那种感受没有人懂..... :'(
男人有了女朋友，会看别的女人是什么意思？
是不是他觉得闷了？不爱了？我太丑了？
你的心我看不透，我真的很自卑.....
如果是我给你不够自由的话，你可以告诉我。


昨晚我想开你的facebook upload照片，可是我不明白为什么我开不到
不是password的问题，而是email ...我开不到。我看见你aprrove 了很多人
而且还是女生，没关系，可是我开不到，我从没想过开你account来check你
因为我相信你，只是想uploade 照片，就那么多, 你换了email?是代表什么？
里面很多神秘的东西吗？

我不知道该怎么办:'( 真的好难过 ， 这样我怎样放心去台湾，
就那么万一我回来了，你变心了怎样？不是我忍心丢下你去台湾
而是我很爱你，所以我更要为我未来着想，这样我才能自由的跟你在一起
而不是像现在朵朵藏藏的。我真的希望你不变心，
如果你想要我给你自由，我给不到，一旦你太自由你的心一定留不住的溜走
我害怕有怎么的一天

朋友

我认识了3个朋友，他们都是小我一年，在我不了解他们的时候，我真的觉得他们是很好很好的朋友
可是当我了解了他们，我才发现他们不是我真心朋友
他们只是在他们需要我的时候，才找我，不需要的时候，就不会理你
这算是朋友吗？对，朋友，可是不是真心
我发现我自己很傻，明知道性格不符合，还要继续跟着他们
我没有想太多，可是事实就摆在眼前，他们从没当过我是好朋友
我们朋友最好的感情，就慢慢变成了仇恨
因为跳舞而时到我们常常吵架，或许是我的问题？
我实在是呆不下去再学校，我想停学不是因为我不想读书，
只是不想面对一些不珍惜我的朋友，弄得自己那么难过
一堆不珍惜我的朋友，我为什么要珍惜他们
到了现在我还在乎什么？
在我认识你那么久，我觉得你变了很多
我难过的我们友谊的距离越来越远
一个17岁的我，就快踏入社会还在乎什么朋友？
一个17岁的我，在乎一群16岁的你们，可惜你们当我是傻瓜看待
16岁和17岁看起来差别真的不大，可是性格就差别很大
我是走向爱玩的世界，我不是走向淑女的世界，正妹世界，要求完美世界
看到别的女生很开放我也要开放，我不想有那种的生活
因为那种不是我自己，我能不爱美，我能不当淑女，我想做一个普通
不让人讨厌的一个女生，我们的友谊性格真的不配...
我想是时候该坦白，我不想继续和你们假装很好的样子
我累了~~~ 我们友谊之间有很多差错，我们都没有去解决....

是我在想太多吗？

何时你开始不爱我，我不懂得， 可是我想知道你真正的答案, 我不想去猜测你心里的答案，你能告诉我吗？ 或许你早已经放弃了我，你爱上了别的女生, 我知道一切一切是我的错, 曾经最爱你的女孩现在没有了，是我害到的吗？ 因为我的出现你们就分开， 你就爱上了我,现在你快爱上别的女生了， 都是我的报应，对吧？ 我不知道该怎么去把这些痛放弃掉， 我不停的哭，我多想你知道， 只是我不想说，我想你多多陪我，很难吗？ 我只是要求一天，就那么一天你能好好陪我吗？ 我忍着哭，我忍着心情，我忍着不想一直找你从星期一到六， 我知道你很累，工作回来就已经很晚了， 我不想你太累，我选择体谅你，不要你硬撑着陪我， 我只要求星期日你陪我而已， 还是你觉得星期日是你想放松自己的时间？ 什么人都不找是那样吗？ 你要知道我有多么想你陪我， 我们都没有好好一次聊天了，我想见到你，你懂吗？ 你能让我知道你在想什么吗？ 我好想好好爱你，好好对你好~ 我想好好照顾你，我想做你最完美的公主， 可是你要的我做不到，不管我再多么努力， 我想做你最美的新娘，最疼爱你的人， 你最需要的人，你最美的老婆， 我不知道我能不能等到，或许等到了， 那时候你已变心了:') 昨晚我一直期待着你对我关心， 我多想你担心我，我多想你问下我怎么了， 可是你没有，好难过，那只是我的错觉， 我想太多了，我们不像童话故事里的那个爱情那么的有缘分， 好希望，我不曾出现过在你面前， 你就不会爱的那么为难，我希望你比我过的开心， 如果你放弃了我，你要记得， JieQi是我一生中最珍贵的爱人， JieQi是我一生中遇到最好的男人， JieQi 我很爱你， JieQi记得好过的比我开心 =‘）................................................................ 我真的真的很爱你， 我的男人❤ 我的爱人❤ 我的傻瓜❤ 我的兔子❤ 我的杰奇❤

Please be happy my love ♥

Baby , Rmb how we meet ? rmb how we be together ?

we have past through so many difficulties stage ~

Then finally we be together

But...

U know how much i miss you ?

i can wait for you although you are busy ,

i know that u will find me when u finish busy,

But those all just onli my mistaken impression

i've think too much , i though that u will find me soon when you free

but u din't find me , im just not understand what you're thinking

i wan to know wad you thinking , im sorry i cant let you happy

im trying , i try my best to let you happy

but i cant do it , im really a useless gf ...

i really duno , Please tell me , please i beg u :'(

every sunday u dint find me , i hope that we can just like before

whole day can sms , But it getting less and less

we nothing to talk , no topic to say , however i trying to tell you

u just feel so nothing , u dint care about what my feeling

u dint care how sad am i , u dint care about my everything ,

our way still long , but u have early let go my left hand

u have early put down my half ...... But do you feel happy ? :')

I dont wanna lost you , and our 1 year preciouse feelings

you really important for me , the Tear i've drop for u it worth

i willing for everything i done it for you

Sory i have go inside ur life , sory to let you love me

Sorry That i Love u too , because i dint give u happiness

This few day few week , we keep nothing to say

we keep quarrel just because a small thing

But that not your wrong ,it all my wrong

i know you already feel so tired , but i keep nothing to say

and treat you cold , all just my wrong

everytime when you find me

i feel so Heartpain , i just duno how to face on you

im trying to be stronger and Smile let you feel that

im was very happy , but i cant do it , perhaps Im not the kind of girl u love

No boy love Fat girl and ugly girl =) right ?

i knew that =)

My dearest rabiit

my beloved rabiit

my preciouse rabiit

No matter what happen in every second

im just wanna tell you , you are my Love

U're so meaningful for me , i cant lost you

perhaps one day , u will meet a girl that know how to love you

know what u wan , Please treasure her every moment What she give you

Treasure her how nice she treat you

If some day you really wanna to let go my hand , just go ahead

i wont blame you , why you treat me like this

because your decision will let you more happy ~

i will alway blessing you ............

i Love you till the day u have give up me :')

这一切不是你的问题，是我的问题

已经三个星期了没有简讯
已经三个星期我天天都打给你
没有你的一天我真的活到不开心
可是每一次我打给你，很多次都没有话说
就只是静静在那边，就这样过了时间
还是我的错？我想知道你除了在家会在做什么？
我想知道昨晚你再做什么？为什么我打给你，你都不接？
不要说你睡觉~不是我不相信你，你心里知道就好
你自己心里最清楚你在做什么？
难道我一点也不重要吗？是不是我太天真了？
想太多，想要成为那个笔记那么完美的爱情
是不可能的事情？为什么不可能？因为我们不配？
因为我们都不是里面的一切，因为我们都不知道怎么去爱对方
我不想再打给你了，不是我不爱你了，而是我要知道
我在你心里是多重要的~我要知道当我不再打电话给你了
你会有什么行动，你会不会为了我不管用什么号码都能找到我
你的反应会是什么，我希望我不会失望

难道你那么久都没有主动找我了，不觉得好像很久没有找我的感觉吗？
为什么我有？还是你一点感觉也没有？
还是我太天真了？
现在的我们不再是以前的我们
我们的感情不在是以前的感情
我的眼泪不再是以前的眼泪那么坚强
你对我的态度都变了很多，我不知道以后的我们会是怎样










我真是一个失败的女朋友!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =‘（

沟通

我们没有再多的话题说了吗?

那么以后还会一样没有话吗？

我打给你，我只希望你对我说多一点话

可是每一次都说几句就停下来静静了

或许我们两个人的性格都不一样

没有话说就没有了~

当你静静的时候，你知道我多想找话题跟你讲

我很多话题，可是我知道这些话题不刚我们

说了后就会不开心之类，要不然你会敷衍我

还是说“我不知你”你知道这四个字能让我深深地感到痛么？

我不知道为什么我们都是这样

或许是我的问题，你没有话我也跟着静静

我们很久没有信息了，信息会让我们更多话说

以前的我，不知道为什么多话到说不完

现在的我少话的静起来了，我是怎么了？

如果我们这样下去，以后不是更没有话说了吗？

见面就只是拖着手不说话？

好几次我跟你讲电话是哭的

你只是听过两次而已，可是我哭在电话多过两次了

这不是你造成的，是我怪我自己为什么小气

你的语气，好和坏我分得出，因为我跟你在一起很久了

我知道~ 当你对我凶的时候，就是你心情不好的时候

我问你，你是不是心情不好，为什么对我说话那么凶？

你会回答我，我为什么要心情不好？我几时对你凶？

当你对我说这句的时候，我会回答你是拉~没有啊，是我想太多

因为我知道你不会对我坦白的说你心情不好

你心情好的时候，跟我讲电话，无论如何都会说笑

电话里的你，很温柔，很疼我的感觉

这样的你，我会一直对你傻笑很多次

因为我开心的听见你笑了

想回去以前，我真的很多话说，我们从不会没有话说

现在，或许久了，感情淡了

我不肯定我能不能和你在一起到永远

因为沟通也是一种感情最需要的东西

没有话说的你自然不会再继续的一起

因为依然都是闷了，不如找新的吧~

每一次都是我最害怕，最担心你离开的那个

每一次都是我最心疼的那个

每一次都是我去记得我们周月的时间

你有记得过每一个周月的日期吗？

你有对我说过我们是在第几第几个月了吗？

还是这些事情不需要去记得？因为不重要？

我对你的态度已经变了许多许多

我真的体谅你，不管是说起什么事情

我都不会逼你去做，第一次不要，第二次不要我就不会逼了

以前的我，每一天都要信息，一天部信息

就如早上开始一定要跟我信息，不然我就会想太多

而一直想傻婆一直伤心，哭泣

现在的我，你每天晚上一定要陪我，不管是在多忙，一封信息

最多一封，就够了，虽然还是很伤心，可是我知道每个人都有自己的自由

勉强没有幸福，以前的我太过现实了

现在我知道了，你的感受，我想起了你跟我在一起那么久

对我最生气的一次，在我面前哭过一次，我都记得

在那时刻我决定了，我少点管你，我少点对你说我吃醋

我少点对你生气，就算是你生气的时候，我怎样都会哄你开心

因为我不想吵架，我不会让吵架再像以前常常都在发生

因为我们都长大了，吵架解决不到事情，我们已经不小孩子了

吵架只会伤感情，就算是我们突然吵起来，我会对我自己说

不要吵架，因为我不想让你不开心，请我退后三步...

我会对你说对不起，不管是你的错，我的错

我一样会退三步对你说对不起，是我的错

请你不要生气了，好吗？我不会让你对我说对不起

因为我不想你生气你自己为什么这样对我

不管你知道你这样做，会让我更伤心，更生气，你还会去做

最后你来对我说对不起，我都不会骂你

因为我要的是你开心，我也希望我们能找更多的话题去讲

沟通是感情最重要的，不沟通，感情不会更爱的

反而变得更淡

我要不要放弃学业去台湾？

我想留下来，是因为我真的不想离开你
可是我真的不喜欢读书，我只是想做我喜欢的东西
我虽然是那么笨，可是我想要我的前途过得更好
将来我做什么事情都不会再有人管，这样我才可以和你在一起
我们过得日子不会再是偷偷摸摸了~
我每一年都补考，我真的很笨
爸爸也拿我没办法，他问我长大后要做什么
我告诉他我要做蛋糕，甜品，还有很多多的小食这里没有看过的
他就说如果你真的要，我就送你去台湾学，因为除了台湾
没有一个地方是比较professional的可以学了...
他说要在那里学一年才可以回来，叫我跟他朋友的女儿一起去学
我真的不知道那时候的我在想什么，我真的很矛盾
我想了很久很久，甚至还想到哭了，因为真的觉得很烦
一，我不喜欢读书
二，我对做蛋糕，小甜品有兴趣
三，我不介意去那么远学
四，我介意的是我不想离开朋友，家人，还有身边的一个最重要的人
五，接收不到新环境
六, 没有认识的朋友
七，我的话语不好，不会看繁体字
八，对台湾人不是有很好的印象

虽然个个都是看自己怎么去做而已，我了解我自己的性格，
我还不知道怎么去独立一个人的生活，因为从小我想要自己试下怎么去独立
一个人的世界，可是父母不给，说我还小，不适合独立
所以我在一个人的生活，不习惯的生活，我习惯了旁边有人陪伴

我不介意去那么远，是因为我知道那边很多东西可以吃
很多东西可以玩，很多东西可以去体验，可是我害怕我去到那边
我不认识周围的地方，我迷路了~我找不回自己的家了
我害怕那边的人对我不好，我害怕一个人在屋里的感觉
尤其是晚上，或者停电时候，或许是我想太多
一生人第一次去了新环境，一个人住一个屋子，一切只能感受到孤单
真的很害怕...

我还怕离去疼我的你们，我不想离去我的家人和朋友那么远，因为他们永远都在我旁边
陪着我，安慰我，关心我，还有我们每一个快乐的时光
我害怕离爱我的你，因为没有你我真的活不下去，一天没有你的关心
我会觉得你忘记我了，我去不是一个月，而是一年，虽然能够回来
可是一年没有你的声音，一年没有你的唠叨，一年没有你的来信
我真的害怕你真的走了，你也会忘记我了，我也害怕你会变心而离去
你口头对我说，去吧去吧，这是你的前途，你叫我去让我觉得
你在赶我走，你说我去到那里我也许会变心，因为你说我会遇到
一个比你更好，比你帅，的男生，你自然会忘记我，然后我去死
你一直想把我让给人家，虽然你是开玩笑，可是我不觉得好笑
因为我是在认真的对你说，我真的不想离你而去，你说我不知道，你自己决定
你真的让我失望了太多，我只想你对我说 我不想你离我太远，请你留下来
可是你没有说，反而说我不知道你，你自己决定
或许变心的人不是我，遇到更好的也不是我，一切都是你
如果我真的决定去台湾，一年后我回来，你真的变心了
我不会怪你，因为我准备好，我会有心里准备，流着泪对你说我祝福你
因为我还爱着你。你快乐，我就快乐

我希望你能拉着我不走，可惜你会我说去吧去吧，这是你的前途
我不想当着你的前途，我的父母虽然不喜欢你，因为你是来自tamparuli
一个小小村的人，我妈的思想就是住在小小村的人都是坏
可是我不觉得，因为我妈没有去真正了解你们
我认识的你，我喜欢的你，我爱的你，我不后悔
因为我没有认识错你，喜欢错你，爱错你
我真的下定决心，我会爱你到永远
不管你是哪里人，父母不接受你，我不会因为这样离开你
我会让他们满满的接受你

我到底要继续我的学业，每次补考，每次不及格的生活
还是去台湾完成我的梦想，之后我就自由了
我不知道我的选这是什么，因为我不知道我的答案会不会是错的

我们的第八个月也就是240天

today is 10.10.2010
Our 8month-sary

i think 2day also not happy at all =(
I duno why and what happen to me 2day....
come back from chruch go sleep a while...
Cox im just feel so tired..................
then i ask my bro wake me up when my dad finish bath
after that he wake me up,i go downstair direct give scold...
HUH?=.=
He say If you dun wanna make medicine for me then just say
i wont force you come down to help me medicine,i duno why la...
Then my tear drop....i go make him the medicine drink...
then i go infront him giv him the medicine,he scold me again
he say why i alway saw u sleep and play computer?
alway jz know do that and lie me,take money and what else you know to do?
useless @#$%^ and many many ...
excuse me? did you know what i alway do?u alway come back i also playing game
or sleep not mean other time i also like this la ok?
u say im lie you,i lie you what,u explain to me la!
if i dun take money with you how i pay skul fee how i study,
u dun wan give me money then dun give la..i dun wan study!
self go out earn money...i do everything dun need you give me money already!
i can do it if you wan like this,i feel more happy that i can 独立!
u Feel No face izit have this kind of daughter?throw la...
many place i still can go de...dun need to use knife cut my heart!HURT!
although you my dad but im not a doll to let you scold...u alway come back then scold
u onli know scold me?other?if sunday i alway go out,u dun regreat and say
im learn bad cause no 1 help u make medicine..!! you ask your self
have your SON help you or do anything for you?! NO THEY DINT HAVE!!
Im know im not very perfect daughter just like your big daughter
doesnt mean im what also useless,not everyone are same!!
IF someday i know to scold back you,dun say im bad or hit me
cause im not a doll to let you scold..!!!
='( i go back to my room then i keep cry keep cry...NON STOP
cry liao 2 hour,after that stop a while cry again....
When im crying,no ppl that stay by my side and consolation me...='(
i though 2day will be the happy day,but it not ~
i think toooo much ~ =']
all just a dream.....................
I duno why i have a kind of life like this ....

Rabbit Sleep le very long time ~
But duno why i have some doubt that he not sleeping,
but he told me he really sleeping,
i hope that he no lie me =(
cause jz now he got on9 i ask him why no find me at hp
he say he wan continue sleep
1st time he say like that,just feel so weird...
argh...what 8month-sary ?
that just feel not happy today....='(

已经过去了，为什么这种感觉又来了

Rabiit. ❤.......................❤

Do u love me?
Do u feel Hard together with me?
You Got your freedom?
I know you feel very hard,
u just dun wanna hurt me so that i alway ask you
you also say you very happy with me
you not feel hard,and u get alot of freedom
those are lie.....
Hurt This feeling,before i alway got
finally you change alot,i duno why
i feel very happy ,and no more Hurt feeling
Long time already i dint cry for you,
finally yesterday and today i had cry for you...
u know why?
yesterday u told me u wanna play game
so that i let you play,until 2pm half
you sms me ask me eat already?i say i eat already
i ask back you,u say not yet,then i ask u go eat
until 4pm half,u say u finish eat,that time i dint reply you
cause im sleeping....5pm half i sms back you en la,but u dint reply
i wait already half hour then i go bath,i though tat you will reply me
when im finish bath,but when i finish bath,i saw my phone
1 msg also dint have....then i ask you to play finish
sin find me...then i keep wait...................................
until 12am half u still dint find me,im veryyyy worry
i go sms your fren,i ask your fren izit you at cc?
he say yes....i ask your fren wad u doing there,but he dint reply already..
okay,tat fine....i know you are playing game,so i keep force myself
dont find you,i wait you find me...and i send "NITEX" mean im sleep
then i lie down on my bed
i keep think keep think...sudenly i cry....a while
you msg come,that time is 1:04 am...
u say "sory i din find rabbit =( " when i saw this msg
i cry,never stop...im trying to stop it, but i really cant
i dint sleep yet,but i dun wanna to reply your msg
cause if i reply you,i cry more fierce...
finally my eye tired,then i sleep ......

today i wake up,1 msg also din have...
it okay =) i will wait your msg come again...
i keep wait keep wait...until now
6:40 already you dint find me...
already 19 hour...i wait your msg for 19hour
whr you?im trying to told you...
if this relationship really make you feel hard
for you true heart....
u can say break to me i wont blame you...
cause not your wrong..wrong is just me,
just me duno how to take care you
duno how to love you
not enough love you....i duno how to express
im VERY LOVE YOU...x1000000+++++
now,im just wait it you find me...
i dun wan find you...not because i don love you
it just wanna see you,if someday i whole day dint find you
will you worry me....?
i know if now i ask you,why u like this
you will told me..i also duno why i like this...
u just care your self feeling..MAYBE...
i dint guess wrong...
im not the most important inside your heart
the most important is GAME...
我没有资格排在你心里的第一个，
因为我不配你的位子
我能为你做的就是这一切
曾经为让你改了许多，
那不是我的功劳
而是你自己要感谢自己
我知道我不在你身边，
以前的你就会走出来
当你在我面前，就是谎言的你
我知道我没有资格爱你
或许着一些是报应
因为我曾经破坏了你曾经的感情
我每一天都在想，每当我听见她的名字
我就会生气....我不知道为什么，也许是上次在warisan那件事情
弄到这样的.......
你告诉我，我该怎么做？如果分手我做不到
因为我不能没有你在我身边
可是如果你对我分手，我能接受一切不管是多伤心
因为那不是谎言......
我说着一些，不是要分手的意思
我只是想你比我快乐，我不要你跟我一样每天都是这个样子



我很爱很爱很爱很爱你李杰奇❤

Stresssssss ='(

20/9/2010

My heart very heavy who know?>.<" But i duno what thing step on my heart right now.... im jz feel veryyy stresss.....i duno why like tiz... but if people ask me what happen..i cant say out... my brain empty onli i know..... maybe because of exam,friend ,dance competition and love... just let me think much ....i cant stop think those thg =.= it jz very hard to solve it..... aiyoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo T.T everynight my tear will come out...i duno i cry for what....it jz feel so... STRESSSSSSSSS .......3 EXAM...nonstop... mock exam,PMR exam,UEC exam... now duno wan how face on my rabbit again.... argue again...i know i wrong alway say DIE DIE DIE.... im just joking,at the same time i know u dun like... now until you say yourself die die.... like wanna revenge on me..... u are the 2nd bf that will revenge self gf... mayb u do the right way...cause you wanna make me Feel it those feeling u all dint wrong,all my wrong..alway argue it just me the onli one will begin i know u busy for playing game....u can tell me,but why u wanna lie me.. dun ask why i will know you are playing game... u promise me wont lie me , but u lie me..... u alway break our promise... Last saturday i ask you those question....i know im just to waste asking you cause u answer me the same answer..me is like that..bad boyfriend ='( i know you like drink beer,i know you like smoke,i know you naughty and bad But same thing,i dun care you is what kind of person im still love,cause i know,u still got many time to change yourself before i do stump up to you,mayb u dun like,cause for you mayb i do just wrong~i do wrong.... If you are really wanna to change,you really love me you will do it for me everything to change yourself from bad become a nice and good person... but u jz not enough confidence you know? you can,just like you now stop smoking already...that wad you have just do for me.. u did it now,why other cant change,mayb i really too much Care you... mayb im the 1 bad girlfriend,dun let you drink beer....smoke,be bad guy why b4 you can?why other people can you cant?not fair right? if i say,i let you to do everything,urself wont think do this is right or wrong so that why i so care you,untill you no freedom.. if i dun care..u never stop never change till now .... you try ask back urself izit the true i say? Im sorry if im say dao so lin cc...cause i duno got what world that NICE can say...im really soryy.... rabbit,If one day,i suddenly dun wanna care you dun wanna ask you alway doing what ,why late reply me, u say wan what,i let you go and do it...you will how? did you will feel weird with my aititude sudden change like this? If that day really come true..i hope you dun think much.. not im not love you,is i let you free already,mean...im tired... you alway not happy i ngam you,so that i wont ngam you already just wanna see you happy,i enough rabbit =) really... but now,however i will let you become a nice person one day... nothing that impossible rabbit... i dun requests you to be a perfect man, but i requests you to be a nice boy..... Rabbit please dont angry me already............... >.<
wo aik ni Rabbit =D❤

Now i lost 1 chance to join the competition cause of exam....
i duno why put the time so match till like this?
i look forward for the comeptition very long time
now it is impossible that i can join..my last exam 29/10
the competition on 5/11
after exam i onli left 4 days to practice...not fair!
haix...i dun wan give up the comeptition....!! T.T
heartpainnnnnnn and sad after i hear dao this informaion
Last answer,is cant JOIN

Cryyyyyyyyy

我把你弄得很生气
我很坏是？

让我再次，也是最后一次答应我自己
我不再让你想今天
我不再让你生气
我为你付出的，你不喜欢，我放弃帮助你
只要怎么做你开心，我愿意。。。。
忍受那些痛，我也会为你做
你生气，我静静

老公，对不起，我让你这样
都是我没有用
不够体谅你......
我一直都不想这样，你每次说你自己很坏
我想办法帮助你，可是我付出的却错
每次吵架，你都Skip或者不回复
这样逃避，你也不会开心....
我们也了解不了对方你明白么？
我不是很喜欢吵架，只不过我觉得我了解你多，
可是你了解我不多
我对不起你，我真的是一个失败的女朋友
你认识到我，是你不幸
你爱上我，你的不幸
虽然你真的很像我以前的男朋友
当我生气的时候，不会逗我开心说甜话
反而你也跟着生气
当我伤心的时候，你不会安慰我
反而你跟着不开心

我想你懂得怎么逗我开心，因为我很容易就开心回
可是你每次都只会让我更伤，
我该怎么告诉你？我想对你说清楚没一个东西
可是我说不到，因为你不想听
你会不reply我，skip我
一旦你不理我，我就会哭
一旦你生气我会害怕，我尽力逗你开心
可是我做不到，很没用对么？
我不想你看不好的东西，因为这样感觉上
你看的不是真的，可是也是你看了别的女生的感觉
你懂?不是我不明白男生，我想要你知道，这些东西，
你已经长大，不要还不懂事的看那些东西

我和你在一起的时候，我记得我答应你
无论发生什么事我都不会找事吵架
我会让你一辈子开心
可是，这一切都是梦话
原来我做不到，因为我不够了解你
老公，我真的很对不起今天
这一天，是我让你最生气的一天
我会记得我曾经这样对你
原来我是那么的坏
我不会原谅我自己的错

永远！我都不会原谅自己
因为一切都错在我不懂你的心，
你坚持要看，那我不管了，我让你
因为你曾说过我不懂男生的感觉
我...很累了....
我把一切选择沉默，哭泣带过

11/09/10 不懂

Yesterday Feel exciteddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd
can meet rabbit..im too early wake up already...
duno why wake up feel not so well ='(
Stomach Feel pain and Keep going to vomit,
but duno why cant vomit out == DAMN !
Then im going to bath and Change cloths...
My mum bring me and bro go eat breakfast....
i dint eat much....Then i Feel Wanna vomit again...
My stomach really not FEEL WELL >.<"
yiiii... Then mum fetch me go Warisan...
i Go toilet again...=.=" trying to vomit out all the thing but duno why cant...
after that i lazy wait vomit better i go find rabbit....
Go inside the CP..Wakao Malay Smell..
yiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii Hari raya
..Too many malay chung hoi...
Walk onli.. Finally meet dao rabbit..

....bla bla bla bla bla .....

Story begin....

While we gonna wait all people come...
Me,rabbit and his fren wait at YOYO...
i Saw Jennifer there already.....
i look at her Very long and beckon with her...
But She dint Respon to me and I has just give she SKIP then she go away already...
Rabbit fren ask me..
why Jennifer dont wanna respon me..
Im just feel so hard to asswer him tat question =.=
i say duno la..habit sudah.....
Suddenly feel angry and Hurt she treat me like that..
ytd morning i sms with her..
i ask her got go her cousin party or not she say "GOT" before if im sms with her..
she sure will answer me GOT YA,U LEH?
now using 1 word answer me whole the question...
Just Because she Yesterday treat me like....
make me Got a Feeling again...
i think we going to break out Frendship Soon.if she still treating me like tiz Even ytd i sit at the Kbox keep look at her..
she also dont wan to Smile with me..
JUST ONLI A SMILE...='(
Fine..It ok...
And I saw "HER"Front the yoyo......
rabit fren ask me dont fight with "HER".....i say why i wan ~
Just Feel so weired.......
And "SHE" Same Kbox with Us.... =.= why "SHE" will there..GOSH!
"SHE" and her Fren keep look at me....
Fine=.= give them see bao ta...

After that i bring rabbit go chruch.....
NOT GO PRAY is go See my fren RACHEL Dance comeptition..
after that 3pm we back CP, Rabbit dint back home ytd he and his Fren go rent a hotel...and live thr...
rabbit ask me accompany him go see the room then i accompany him go....
Go up thr ......saw his fren playing =.=
Then "SHE" tell Rabbit fren wanna come up The hotel and have a look Then

...bla bla bla ...

"SHE" at outside the door...Keep look inside..
Im just stand inside near the door..
"SHE" say HI to me,Im sure respon back her although i hate "HER"...
"SHE"keep @#$%^&*() thr....
Begin Im feel So annoying...i have some impulse wanna ask "HER"
why dont you just Say or Do directly what you want...
Dont keep waste your time to do so many thing
make dao self so cheap...=.=
But I Never wanna to argue with "HER" from the begin till now
I dint have to dispute with "HER" anything...
And i know "SHE" Do like tat Just because "SHE" still Love rabbit..
however...I never let "HER"..If i let,i know rabbit wont choose "HER"
cause i trust Rabbit
I Going out with rabbit i just wanna to be happy
Beh tahan them,i go out,rabbit follow me go Cp too...
im just Feel Sad... Think bu dao Why...Why "SHE" just dun wanna stop
dispute with me?She happy if do like tat?Im never Do so childish
wanna argue with her...i let her....Mayb my Face...
Really look like easy give bully those ...So she dare like tat
But my heart not just like u all thk till So Weak....
I even not scare..Just Dun wan Sot with her Using childish device to dispute =.=
If someday,they ask me out..however who celebrate on their birthday
I will Not out anymore..cause i know,Got them,sure got "HER"
I just wanna stop this war....except IF Rabbit will be there..i will Go..
other time..i never wanna to go...Please dont say im scare of "HER"
Cause Im not...she just a human being,same like me....= )

THE END ~

Cryiiiing ='(

I'm Sorry for the everything i have done ytd,
All because of me,I make u angry again....
iF im acting to dint see dao,i dint ask you
i dint comment in to your post,everything wont become like this
im truely a useless...while im webcam with rabbit...
i saw the post ii lie down on the table and cry.....
i know how i cry also cant find out the truth answer
why you wanna post those thing on ur walll.....
i know sometime im really hurt you,u say u will stay with me forever
i trust you can do it for me , i trust what you promise me....
getting more people comment in the post...
Qian told you im acting smile infront you
Im really dint have acting,that was im really smile with you
but u even not trust me....i was Soooooo Sad
and you angry,i ask you not to be angry what you has just reply...
I duno u are Gu Yi Or what...U has just treat me Very Lc.
"Dun say me angry..ltr ppl say me again everytime hurt u itu la"
Just the word you has reply onli...Im cry more fierce
after that you really Off9 already.....

Im really not understand why you just say those word out...
If will become real someday,i trust you,but u sudently type those thing
it make me Hard to Trust Forever again....
im scare...Im really Scare...='(
Rabbit....I love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
I cant lost you rabbit...........................................
And i dun wanna throw our momeries that we had done on this 7month
I dont 1,Im never gonna regret i fall in love with you....................
im never gonna regret to be your girlfren................
im never regret together with you although how hurt
im never regreat No matter what happen in between use
HOWEVER I ALSO WONT AND NEVER GONNA TO LEAVE YOU RABBIT
i cant lost you,JUST CANT ='(

I know Cry is useless,cant settle our Love.....
but can you tell me U wanna Continue together with me now?
Yesterday i was dream So long,and cry for 2 hour then just going to fall as sleep
i has Think many thing....JUST 'IF' someday it really happen..
i duno i wan how to accept the truth...Cant
i wake up,i continue cry again when im see the post....
i just hope that you find me faster.....I miss you So much rabbit ='(
I Must Out on this saturday however my mum let or not..
I JUST DUN WAN TO CARE if my mum scold me..
im wanna meett you,i hope tat you also can comfirm to out...

Rabbit please find me fast , im really miss you now
Im just wanna told you sorry for everything....
and we Wanna to be Happy today...
today Was our 7month anniversary .....
the time Getting faster...jz a while ..
we going to be 7month..im So happy we can Walk till So long
No matter it was how Hard to walk by..

Babe I love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
Happy 7month anniversary
Rabbitt Lee Jie Qi❤, Muacksss

Waiting 9/9/10

Today i dint go to school,Too stress,going to Pmr
i dint start study yet,haix.....
Im so stress on everything,what im gonna do?
Today whole day at house,sit infront computer
from morning till night.....
Im miss him soo much....But he busying on something
Duno what he busy , #34 nvm la..dun ask
Later he angry me again like last time...
Now just im feel Sad and some angry~
i duno why i wan to be like that....
Sometime i wish i could ask him some few question
that make him feel annoying and hard to answer...
And i dint hear b4 he ask me those few quesion...
i remember last time i bad mood,i open hs5 find him
i ask him those silly question,he ask back me
can dont ask me those question anymore....
I just hope that someday he could ask me back
cox i also wanna to let him know my heart answwer...
Just like for him, was so hard to answer me ..
His hp bo lui again....call him never answer...
he dint bring phone go out..use ppl hp sms to me..
alright~=') Fine..im ok..
lets count the time i waiting for him
12pm 1pm 2pm 3pm 4pm 5pm 6pm 7pm
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 hour...gosh~
7 hour 3 msg..haix......now wad im gonna to do...
Waiting again...Nvm...

While im waiting im updated my blog...
I like my blog so much..espeacially the picture ❤
rabbit saw it sure like ..heheeeee❤
dun know when he just can see it ...hmmm
mayb midnite la..
Just now,i has just nothing to do
i read back my blog dairy...
every post that i has just read it....
im just feel So speechless my tear drop out...
every post,i've feel it all the pain..
the moment i type those feeling..
The Tear fall deeply ..............
Sometime im really duno why i will type like this
All the feeling,im just hope i could ask you...
Im too worry about this relationship..
Make till im hard trust on how long u will stay with me
Im just Duno how to say that im really love you..
I've no idea to say how much i love...
So that Alway cry for u,make u feel annoying...
While im today waiting you to find me...
i keep think my feeling..and many...i has just post on Fb those feeling..
let translate to english

♥ I Was Endure the Feeling , To be disguise Happy Infront you
♥ Cause U Dont know Waiting Feeling
♥ No matter how im Cry , U Cant Feel it
♥ I Dont care I can endure or not , I Will attempt to Endure
♥ Cause I Dun wanna see you unhappy
♥ I Told my Self Before wanna Let you happy
♥ Even though im happy or not , You dont need to worry about So many
♥ While im see you happy , im satisfied
♥ Cause I LoVe you Babe ♥

My Love have revenge❤

It was Raining outside....Feel very Cold...
And im Feel hungry,but duno why no appetite to eat
My Hand Feel so cold right now and just holding the phone
sms with you...but i was crying..=')
you dont wanan tell me what you doing on,why keep late reply
u keep say no no no ..ntg ntg ntg....but why late reply?
u still dun wanna tell me why..it okay...
just let me keep think why you will late reply...
just keep think,my brain have many answer ... It's Feel so Hurt
for the every answer...haix....
Ytd we was argue...i say u never know the feeling..
make you sad..i was so regret to say that...cause i was too hurt
i scare to let you sad..when i at fb saw what u have just post
when i saw it..i crying more fierce..haix...im really useless
then i hope that i can make you happy back..
so that i keep told u say tat i wana call you
Finally i make you laugh,i was Sooooo happy !!
But today,i make you angry again....
im really useless gf...u dun wanna told me what you doing,
but i keep force u to say,make you angry again...
now u treat me Sooo cold Soo cold...how i regret also no use..
we argue everyday...i duno why..everything come from me...
all i make....all i begin 1st..ALL JUST ONLI ME..!!!
that y i hate myself is this reason..!!
When i make you angry,u will treat me cold...
u do the right way to me...u dint do wrong anything...
i know u got self secret...sometime im really dun need to know too much
of your thing..cox u really need a space to hide your thing...
but i dint have anything to hide from you..i duno why we both not same..
maybe we not match,not same world people...
duno why god wanna let me to fall in love with you...
between the relationship are alway argue...
this friday 10/9/2010
our 7month anniversary..alway our anniversary also argue..
i hope this time we wont...

The secret u keep it..i'll stop asking you....
I hope myself can thking dao the answer ....why u dun wanna tell me
what are you doing keep late reply me..
you trying to let me try the feeling,now i know ....
U let me know too much Love ...and what kind of Love..
Great..i was going back to my JAIL life again...
WHAT LOVE ALSO THE SAME ...
u all are treating me on the same way...
that was my BIG WRONG...and u all let me know that
The most wrong in the relationship not boy..!!
IS ME..A GIRL that duno how to love a boy..
Just know to hurt you....
My Love HAVE revenge..!! That Correct..=')
DUN need to say No again..

❤

I just wanna be with you ='(
Did you know how much i love you?
i love you more than other...
more then everyone...more than i love myself
i know that i was very useless..i cant give you hapiness...
babe...I just need your answer...can let me know do you happy with me?
Do you regret together with me?Do you?
Can giv me your heart the real answer?
I dont wan to hear the answer by ur mouth..
I was really missing on you this few day rabbit...
Same thing you do alway on this 2 month..
Less find me...Late find me....im Sorry...i know that you need ur own space
but if i dont find you,will you find me?
alway i find you..i duno why im being a girl alway be so voluntarily
but i still do it....im worry u whole the time you dint find me..

This few day we keep argue...im the one begin 1st...
i really duno why im so small gas...abit then angry
i just hope that what feeling also dint have..
so that we will be happy wont argue...but...
im was so sensitive on every feeling......why?why wan like that?
if i dun tell you that im crying..im hurt,im sad,im angry...
Will you care?will u ask?
i hate myself very much..not im really wanna say myself useless alway
but it true..
i hope i ever duno what is pain..........
i scare i have a bf that same as b4..i dun wan!!
i promise myself..you was the last i love....i wanna be with you forever
i dun wanna to lost you.....please stay with me..

一个温暖的拥抱，让我能够感觉幸福
当你牵着我的手，我能感觉到什么叫永远
当你不在我身边，我觉得这个世界很寂寞
你不想理我的时候，我就会觉得自己没用
我哭是因为，我真的在乎这份感情

❤

Im feel heavy now....................................................
Hard to move......what happen?Too strees?
not you not enough love me,is me Cant feel it
im really wan to know what you has just thking on ur mind,
i has just break my promise,that i promise myself never angry anymore
but i has just break it..why like tat?Please wake up and do what u has just promise..EMILY WAKE NOW!!
i say already i must endure however it hurt....i cant say cant endure....
im really feel stress~im really feel tired...My heart was broken into pieces....
what can i do now?can u treat me nicely please?i mean i know im to care about you
make till u no freedom.......if u cant accompany me..please tell me that u wan to playgame
i can let you...although im not happy....
i know u feel annoying...me 2 feel annoying...
我很想你陪我，我很想你关心我

our relationship was getting cold and far .....
we alway argue,u also dun wan reply me already
i know u dun wan argue with me...but can u tell me the truth
i dun wan you lie me...
u know im very love you,u know im easy get hurt
u know im alway cry if you treat me like tat
but why u still wanna continue treat me like tat?
im not understand.....im very hurt u know?
i scare i will lost control and do foolish thing.....

Im very love you LEE JIE QI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DID YOU KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DID YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CAN YOU STOP TREAT ME LIKE TAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WAS SO HURT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Speechless

for our relationship
im very feel tired....
Sory about everything...
i alway find argue....................................................
i 4got wad i promise myself b4...
now i remember on it..=D

Pain

Im really miss our begining moment,u alway find me 1st
when i school,u wake up direct find me,and keep sms when i was studying
u can accompany when nite,whole nite also accomapanying with me
why now change till like that?what reason?mayb all was my problem
i make you lazy sms with me,im too annoying already...
from this month you begin change,u even no work no do anything
alway go CC play game,u still cant sms all the time,
like playgame busy than working...mayb game really important to you..
i hope you can be like before alway accompanny me
but that impossible,u cant do it for me i know.....
This blog im not alway Open,but now i begin everyday open
everyday type my diary,and the tear keep coming out
u rmb what you promise ytd?you say that you busy,u will find me at fb
but 1 msg also dint have,u dint reload why you wanna say like that?
i know i wait till im cry,i duno why u wan like that?

im everyday cry for what?you rabbit care me?will rabbit direct sms me?NEVER!!!!!!!
impossible thing,please dont thk till so good
this is the 1st time i love you,until i alway cry...mayb i cry,for you was nothing
cause you already habit i cry....a while ntg....
you know why no ppl care me when im crying?
cause they all already habit i alway like tiz mood..
know why thy never ask me what happen?cause they already know what happen...
2day i keep wait you msg again,but u still dun wann find me
but i see ur fb got comment another girl status,that girl pretty 1 =D
but my fb,every post just like rubbish..ya i admit those i post de also a rubbish
i alway on9 fb see you on9,you sometime never find me,wait i find you
then you reply me,or sometime dint reply me...u doing a big business...?
im really admire those couple so sweet,however they also never change like us...
our feelings was getting cold,never become sweet like the begining...
if you are really busy,u need a gf for what?
i know im not perfect to you,cause you have couple with a foolish girl..
useless,ugly,fat,stupid girls....
im not look nice then other girls,they are pretty,clever,nice
im not,so that you alway comment thr post....cause they are really good
im just a foolish girl...no ppl like......
family also dun like me,mayb fren also,this i really duno
i hate myself very much...i hope i can die fasther....
i dun wana stay in this not equitable world
im tired already,please let me go....

Rabbit i no chance alway can sms with you already
i no chance to call you
i no chance to care you
i no chance for everything....u know this few week i got many thing wann say
many many....just wanna share with you my thing...
and i just wan to ask you that this sunday can come to see my performance?
the ticket i help you buy already,however you can go or not..it also ok..
but i no chance to told you this thing...cause u no time
to let me say it to you,u onli just do ur thing.....
i duno when we got time again............................
i just hope we can be back when the begining of you and me
nothing gonna change my love for you..that was our 1st time told each other
the word .......
now i cant see this word on my mind anymore....
my heart was getting pain and pain and pain....